the sickness

I miss You most when I feel sad and alone

although that doesn't matter now.

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One can seriously play one degree of separation between us.

I'm constantly reminded of You.

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But why should I give a fuck anymore?

You can only rack my brain and give nothing more.

I don't want to take less.

Sometimes the fact that I just think of you fills this empty void.

And then I dream..

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I went to visit my family after work today

then I left because I couldn't breathe.

How can one be happy in an environment pushing negativity in every which way?

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I always have trouble sleeping.

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I'm so tired of pain.

emotionally, mentally, and physically.

every place that bends seems to ache and hurt with pain.

and all I can do about it is say FUCK.

all this pain is new, since April at least.

I'm tired of feeling broken and cripple at the age of 22.

I couldn't even workout tonight because the foot that felt normal yesterday

feels way fucked up today

and for no reason at all it seems.