How do you escape a ghost from your past?

This dark shadow hoovers and clings to my back,

Refusing to let me go.

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Everyone talks to me about You.

Like I care anymore though!

I've learned to not care and even hate Your being for shelter for myself.

It all has felt like a slap in the face,

A bitch slap who's sting has lasted for 3 years.

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Are you going to go see Their show tonight?

No I'm not going to fucking go to Their show.

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You never escape my mind regardless.

And as much as I want to and long to see you play again,

I would only be stabbing myself with a thousand deaths once more if I'm to see you again.

Especially with You're new love, even though I've been told you talk about me from time to time.

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What the fuck does this all mean??

I'm someone who believes in meanings behind events in life..

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It feels like I'll never live this down.

I feel like I've brought this all upon myself

I two-timed,

But then at times it feels life plays it's course for a reason,

And I try and be optimistic and believe in this.

But You really are the underlying conscience to every single thought that exists in my mind.