why can't calls be returned in a timely manner?
and why can't texts be responded to promptly after you have received response?
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disappointments are adding up, and it's starting to feel like I'm really not worth your time.
but I think I realized a while back and ignored that you, perhaps, weren't really worth mine.

Last night I whispered to you that I love you while I gently stroked your face.

You looked so beautiful sleeping and I couldn't contain any longer.

Or was that all just a dream I dreamt of what I wish to tell you someday?..

Or it could have happened in my sleepy daze, unaware if you heard me or not.

Either way, my heart is fully involved in this now.

I've been neglecting things due to an illusion, and I shouldn't continue to do that.
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There are times when you can feel used by the people who you put your trust into the most.
Trying to rub you tarnish. Just how they are.
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Things need to be taken back.
I let them get too far before they really should have- but I take responsibility for my actions.
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Un-conscientiously, it's really been all about the sex.

I hit the market after work and was shopping in the tea aisle when a very hot employee of the store asked if I needed help.
Just browsing..
He then wanted to pursue conversation and asked what kind of tea I drink.
I mentioned I wanted to change up the style since I've been bored of my jasmine green, and then he went into a 15 minute description of a home brew he grew up with.
Cinnamon black tea spiked with honey.
Sounds delicious, I must try.
He showed me where the cinnamon sticks were located and told me to tell him next time how it tastes.
We said bye with a high-five.

lesson learned

• Never deny an offered sweater for a cold bike ride home from a really hot guy. He's obviously going to want it back, especially after stating how it's his favorite hoodie and he'll let you borrow it for your ride home.

I am kicking myself for not accepting it.

My roommate brought home a dog last night.
I don't think I'm ready for this.
I feel like I gave birth to a child and now this thing will be attached to me forever.
Mentally I'm not ready for this.
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Last night I went to see Phantogram - Awesome show!
and rather than it being at a large venue, it was at our local dive Rips.
Luckily I now live close so I was able to bike my way over, but then when I asked the "security/parking attendant" where there was a bike rack, some douchebags walking by started laughing at me.
But whatever assholes, I won't be getting the DUI.
Oh, and the highlight of the show was when the midget behind me started to slightly hold on to my waist and try and grind with me while I was grooving out. At first it really weirded me out and I stopped dancing, but then later I just didn't care and thought it quite funny because this guy was so short my ass must have been rubbing his chest.
Quite hilarious I thought.
And listening to the opener before Phantogram, Josiah Wolf, made me really sad and I actually started to tear up a bit and for a moment and thought I was going to break down (sometimes I can be an emotional drunk). It was reminding me of someone.
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I ran 4.2 miles yesterday on the bridal path. For the most part it was comfortable and I was really enjoying my run, but it started getting dark fast since I went after work. On my run back about 1/2 ways my right knee cap was starting to feel a bit irritated. I'll have to start bringing my brace to last for longer runs.
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Ok, now for some pictures!

some of my work lately!

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crazy storm Phoenix experienced this past week! this is my work view.

there were 4 tornadoes that hit northern AZ, crazy!

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Ok, and now for some Black Keys! These are from my SD/LA trip, BUUTTT... I don't have photos from the Palladium night because that was my rock star experience..

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and then this lil' guy was outside my work window one day