3.24.2011

how many people withhold sex from your partner?

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please, speak your thoughts.

3.21.2011

anxious anxious

This will be arriving in the mail for me sometime soon.
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It was created by jeweler Julie Nolan, who also has more beautiful work in her shop.
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Last night the Italian and I visited Amococo at the Mesa Arts Center. This exhibit was only constructed for a two week period display and resembled a giant bouncy castle from the outside, but a living, breathing organ from within. With the many different passages, and the colors of blue, red, and green in abundance, I felt I was traveling through a vein, waiting for the rush of blood to be pumped through. Accompanying the sculpture was soothing, hypnotic music. The only thing I felt lacking in the sounds gliding through the tunnels were whale calls.
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image via Imnop blog



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You can watch a video on it here.

3.17.2011

The Impossible is Possible Once Again




Most excited for the color and b&w silver shade Polaroid film I just ordered. Hope it arrives on time for my trip to San Francisco. I now regret not ordering 3 packs, as each pack only comes with 8 shots. Hoping these shots come out so I can begin my new series of Polaroids in travel.









dream kitchen

*Rhiannon Kubicka's home via Apiece Apart

I wish to have a kitchen as lovely as this one, someday, to place all my colored glasses and pretty dishes.
I love how they are open and floating in the air.






3.15.2011

happy birthday to You...

this morning made it all the more special.
both for me and you I think,.. I'm sure.
you always look so beautiful in the morning light.
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3.09.2011

Birds Can Fly

A lot has been going on in my life since the new year, leaving less time for me to post than what I would like to have.

~A cat came and went. Back in early January I rescued a kitty off the street and named him Tom. He was abandoned by sick owners who kicked him to the curb after having a child, leaving him outdoors during the coldest part of our winter this year, barely feeding him. They claim they thought he was skin and bones because he was 'getting more exercise than normal'.


Poor guy though. He didn't last long in my care. My main goal in bringing him home was to nurse him back to health so that he could still live. I know he would have died out there on the streets. He's in indoor man, not suite out at all for them street cat thugs. I did 3 major vet trips, resulting in him having an ear infection, a respiratory infection (he lost his meow for a while!), and bad bacteria in his intestine, resulting in runny, stinky poo and constant puking. He was all better by February, but my schedule is so packed and busy that I was never home to give him enough attention! He definitely needs to live in the care of someone who is constantly home for his companionship. I finally had to surrender him to the Humane Society after asking around if anyone wanted a kitty. I really loved Tom, even with his ADD/Mental disorder problems. I could never tell if he was like that from birth, or because he was a grandpa.

~ I have my own website! It's here, nothing too exciting, nothing there YET. Thanks to my Italian, he pretty much built it for me :) Now I'm waiting on a Kickstarter project to help aid me in acquiring a digital camera to start shooting fine art in digital format, and I will be purchasing a film scanner soon to start showcasing my film work on my website! This is very exciting for me. A domain in my name.

~ I applied and sent off my papers and portfolio to CCA in San Francisco and should be hearing back from them any day now to see if I've been accepted. Crossing my fingers! I'm planning on buying a ticket to fly out there to scope out the campus. Plus it's a good opportunity for my Italian and I to start scouting the area.

~ Been busy spending time with my Italian. Life is feeling very happy and fulfilling with him in it. We spend a lot of nights wine and dining on homemade meals. I love cooking for him! Plus it's starting to get him off the habit of eating takeout for every single meal each day. Saves on money and your health!

~ Running and working out A LOT. I try and do something active for at least 30 minutes each day. It's pretty much bikini season already here in the AZ!

~ Doing tons of brainstorming for art projects. I started working 4 days instead of 5 now so that I can have an extra day to work on my work.

~Planning trips with my Italian! We're looking at SanFran, Coachella, Maui, *a surprise trip for him*, and Vegas are all in the works!

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On another note, today I took  a sanity test online, hoping to discover that I'm some crazy mental brainiac or something, only to be told that I was completely sane. How boring! Before you start the test, the website asks you all kinds of questions such as if you have a history of any type of abuse, have ever been diagnosed with a disorder, have or am currently struggling with such and such...on and on, and I couldn't answer yes to anything except that I came to this site for self-help. But I realized answering no to all those questions that I am happy now. I really feel happy. I am in a good place in my life, surrounded by good friends and people who I love and care for. Yes I have my problems and worries, but there are far greater things in life to focus on than not having enough money, not liking so much my job, ...really that's all I can think of at the moment that may give me the slightest grief!

It also got me thinking, and I actually have been desiring this for some time now, but I would like to find a group, or an organization of some sort, who focuses on tapping into a higher level, if you know what I mean. I feel the spiritual side of my life has been lacking, and I've been wanting to fill it. My Italian suggested we start attending a Lutheran church. I'd be down, but I'm not interested in joining any religion, and I'm not interested in converting to any type of christianity either. I consider myself christian, but I don't agree 100% with any christian religion. Hopefully I can find what I'm seeking out. Any suggestions? And nothing pagan or satanic please. Just more of self-spirituality at your own pace, tapping into your mental state to connect with a higher, revelatory power.


3.03.2011

why can't calls be returned in a timely manner?
and why can't texts be responded to promptly after you have received response?
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disappointments are adding up, and it's starting to feel like I'm really not worth your time.
but I think I realized a while back and ignored that you, perhaps, weren't really worth mine.